Author and Perfector (abridged)

It is interesting looking back over what I wrote yesterday... because I was still in a black hole of confusion after writing them, as if I slipped momentarily out of it and then unknowingly back. Hebrews 12:2-3 Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross... Consider him who endured such opposition from sinful men, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart. on last night: Thank you for listening, for God's wisdom through you. I needed to hear that. God, your peace trancends understanding. Help me to stop scrutinzing where each individual part fits into my big picture. I can't begin to say that I even know what that picture is. Script my life, take away this desire to try and do it all myself. Slow my overthinking, my compulsive analysing. Slow me down. Thank you for this stretching. You've got me, let me stay in the security of knowing that you'll only take me as fast as I can go. You are constant. Holy God, you're my savior, you're my complete.