allsaidanddone

Thursday, December 23, 2004

Hope

Its strange how things all seem to fall into place at the same time. I have a job. First application, First Interview, First Job. Full time reception/admin and some design work at an interesting business. The people I met were friendly. The only real draw back is that I have to travel 1.5hrs by train/tram to get there. So this is during the holidays - I start on the 6th of Jan. I can only hope and pray that it continues into next year. Uni courses, I feel pretty good about it all, none of my friends are going through crisies atm. God is good. Im not freaking out about friendships/realtionships... it seems right now that God has it all completely under control. He's given me patience, hope and peace. Yeah things are never completely smooth sailing. Time frames the portrait of change, and God uses that. I have changed a phenominal amount since last year - since three years ago. Christmas this year although it doesn't feel like Christmas is a better season than last year, and although its not completely the season 'to be jolly' - the sadness isnt there anymore.

Friday, December 17, 2004

love, the Grinch

Well, I wrote this down - must have been on the 15th. and I think I might just copy it. Coming home from Grandma's, was looking at the Christmas lights. I think most of them are pretty ugly - gaudy. Mum makes a big fuss over them. Really the nicest ones are the simple ones. No santas, no flashing pulsating lights, not in excess. Anyway, I looked up and the sky is brilliantly clear - stars. It sort of struck me that, that's God's perfect Christmas decoration. I mean really it's perfect. :) God has good taste. Even better, these decorations aren't taken down, they are there all year round. Its a cool reminder, that wow. what an amazing gift we have been given and why dont we take that time 'not just at Christmas' to remember. Hannah I doubt that you'll ever read this, but this is what I was thinking when I was saying how I dont like various decorations. You calling me 'the Grinch' had a purpose.

Monday, December 13, 2004

results

I got results today. It's a bit strange when you think about it. Your whole schooling life leads up to one bust of insane studying and stress and ends in a simple number. I'm happy with what I got. A bit more would have been nice - always would be nice. But God has me where he wants me. Besides I know what I'm doing next year thats set in concrete and I really couldnt be much happier. I dont like uncertanties. I prefer to have a descision made than to be in the process of changing. I found a new uni course in the paper, will check it out tomorrow - Interactive Media, sounds a bit like my kind of thing. Which means changing preferences - not that I mind. I really have no idea about where my life is headed career wise anyway. Thinking about the competition thing... having a twin, well the stakes have always been high from where I stand. Laura doesnt seem to care. I frankly dont understand. Shes probably a much wiser and definately more humble person than I'll ever be. She beat me. I dont care too much. A little number on the computer screen doesnt bother me half as much as I thought it would. You hear about all those people stressing majorly and crying their guts out -what can you say. There's more to life. One result leads to another... the same other you probably were aiming for in the first place, I'm guessing the difference is only in how far you are prepared to go to reach that place. If you want to get there you are going to, a lower score hardly makes a difference - except perhaps to make you more determined.

Sunday, December 12, 2004

on random

I'm guessing this is going to be a little like putting on your CD player on shuffle. I don't know what to expect from this. I don't know how long this is going to last. I'm going to assume that this will be rather random - as life seems to be. As to commenting on society or news or what's in the world today, I havent a clue how much that will come through. I live a lot of my life in my head - sometimes more than I think is healthy. It will actually be curious to see what I think about (in a documented kind of way), if I have the guts to put some of it down. I cant start well with a blank page, neither for a letter, a story, even the infrequent vent onto paper. So - this is something down. Is this for me? Or do I want others to be able to read this. In all normality, I suppose a blog really is for others to read to comment. Who ever you are, this is but a little of who I am -I think I'd do well to remember that also. I started something back in August. I've forever tried to keep journals and always failed - I started with the intention to have something to look back and see how I'd grown. It's lasted - often infrequent. But it serves its purpose. I hope this will do the same