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Tuesday morning. The only one at home. Sitting in the corner of the lounge with coffee, Bible, journal. Favourite place - or becoming so. Its windy outside which makes the shaddows from the light coming through the windows more interesting. Have to write Personal Creed today, but that can wait. I can choose my response to today. I'd rather it be less of a mess than the past few. Brining stuff back to God last night will have a large part in that response. I could distance myself from what's going on, let myself think continually through it or let it sit knowing God is in complete control - the better option. To go from here. Frustrated I vent frustrations on a few. Unfair not to listen first. I can't change that (past), but a mental note for next time. I'm sorry I do that. Can tell a little about God talk in some ways, when problems seem too much we take the first step of getting angry, pouring out dissatisfactions and fears and forgetting to stop. Get so caught up that we forget to listen when maybe that's some of what we should be doing first. Not to say don't bring it all to God. Raw emotion, exact problems, honesty of your situation. God wants to hear that. Just not taking the time to stop and be still. Words, be they said, thought, written are less important coming from you than from another. God knows it all anyway. What would it be like to approach a problem in reverse? I wonder if that's part of what happens when it is too hard to pray when you are forced to either (completely ignore God) or to read something. A Psalm, whatever. I don't know how true or how clearly I'd prescribe to doing it differently. Worth thinking about though, that and having the presence of mind in that kind of situation. Thankyou God for knowing me. Help me to lsiten to you and to others first. Keep honesty in place. Let me put you first in everything - including problems. ------------ Church stuff.... conversation with mum about more stuff. Meeting on Saturday will be going ahead, Vote if kicking the Roe's out was the right move. Yes I should go. Blah. I will vote YES and dont mind saying it, it wont change. Whatever the outcome, Dad, Mark, Geoff all resigning from leadership. Some staying so leadership isn't crawled over with the wrong people... much being handed over to another Bretho guy. We will be leaving WPC. I had already made that descision. Looks like some church hunting will be happening - as much as I hate the 'church shop' slogan, I guess I need to find somewhere that will work (both in getting there and fiting in). :) mum saying stuff about that ^ freedom to choose is nice. I dont have to go same place as them - wouldn't anyway unless I chose to. Intentionally getting annoyed and going out of my way to assert myself infront of her my have stuff to do with it. So yes, changes ahead. Prayer would be good.