Sunday Someday

Went to L. Baptist this morning. It was alright. A little traditional for me (ha. what happened. I used to like it that way) not really old, but a bit. The sermon was good, funny, relevant and sort of what I needed to hear. 1 John 3 stuff, and the end of 1 John 5. On God's love/children of God roughly speaking. I don't mind their evening services - more youth orientated. I'm really not enjoying the whole concept of 'church finding'. Its really quite difficult to sit through something. As if I don't want to be in the place where I have to make the effort to find somewhere... wanting it just to happen. Things like, they sang this old song: Channel of your peace or something... and these lines: Oh, Master grant that I may never seek So much to be consoled as to console To be understood as to understand To be loved as to love with all my soul. Was a big struggle to sing that, I dont think I even did. An ask yes, but honestly speaking, you/I want to be understood, loved etc... and 'consoled' when appropriate. I want someone to know me thouroughly. "How great is the love the Father has lavished on us..." - 1 John 3:1 ^understanding that is not very easy when you're looking for it in more concrete forms. When your head dictates all, anounces the reason of, 'of course, look at all He's done', but you heart wants to feel it and has a lot of difficulty doing so. When wants aren't met they way you want them to.